All the i wanted was to do something remarkable, something that can be praised by others. With the recent readings of few books on spirituality and attendence to a few sessions, my mind has changed it's form of identity to a new shape of possesiveness. Underneath the mask of spirituality the old ambitions,expectations,dreams are taking few quick naps. However, they are making quite some noise whenever they are awake.There is a constant conflict between the two major ideas, Enlightement and Achievement. My idea of living has been to get enlightened first and then take up some plan to make a great success story. In this process, the conflict has never reduced ,and moreover, it has aggravated. As i can see from the books of spirituality (The power of now and stillness speaks etc) that the you can never become enligtened, you can only be enlightened. This implies that i can never set enligtenment as a goal to achieve. Hence, it will never get fulfilled. so are my plans to make a great sucess story also can never be atttained.
what to do now?
